I know you are having a relationship ‘hangover’. I know you want to burn yourself for no concrete reason. Your self-esteem is being questioned by none other than your self. You seek vengeance for the one year of torment while he poses happily for that picture. His voice still rings in your ears “You have demented my happiness. You always made yourself a priority. I have no feelings for you.” But guess what? This is not true.
You did not make a mistake. You need not be extremely self-critical about yourself. His happiness does not concern you. I know the moment your feed refreshed with that picture, a tiny ventricle connected to your heart got snapped. But it is ok. You deserve better people. Look at yourself in the mirror and smile. You are more fortunate than you think. Think about the times when you woke up and did not complain. the times you supported and stood by him. The times when you stayed without having an apparent reason to do so. You adorned his life with happiness. You learnt to co-exist. You understood how it is not easy to give someone your time.
If something does not last forever, it does not imply it was not worth it. Your life may not have terminated the way you expected, but nevertheless this new chapter is in no way stale. Your prince charming might have overthrown you for no reason at all. Don’t let trivial things affect your life. Be optimistic. think practical. Don’t let that tear trickle down your cheek. You have the strength to stop it. You are the goddess of strength. Show it. Change is the only constant thing in life. Learn to embrace it. Maybe he happened for a reason, or maybe not.
Don’t keep questioning the universe about it. Sometimes it doesn’t want to answer. Don’t be so clingy. We choose the battles we want to fight. Choose wisely and do not exacerbate it for yourself. I will take care of the decisions. Just don’t daydream. I love you.